Step 6: Becoming an older kid

Three things I love: 1) my son Fox-Opotomous The great, 2) My guitar (my deepest thoughts coming out in musical form), 3) People that CARE.

I like people that care about what they are doing and how they are perceived. There is a fine line between CARING and living completely for others. You have to live for yourself still, just try to be considerate.

I haven't posted in a while because frankly I've been living. I've been writing music for a solo album that I NEED to make. It's about 3 years in the making and I will have a lot of people to thank when I am ready to release it. Number one "thank you" will be to all of you that have read these posts and that have sent me messages encouraging me and commenting and talking shit. You all kept me going, just like any of you that have come out to shows, hugged me, played with me, given me a high five or just drank a beer with me. You all care and I love that I have been blessed enough to experience you.

Life takes some crazy turns. One minute you are living the dream... everything is going right with the person of your dreams, you have the life you want... then BOOM! All of sudden you're happiest moment is yelling "strap-on!" with some friends during an awkward word game and everything is a little backwards. I've been there and it's a little weird, but all I can do is reassure that feeling sad and weird and a little awkward is something that should be savored. When you are hurting... just hurt. Let those that love you hold you close and just BE. On the flipside... when you are happy just let go and be REALLY FREAKING HAPPY. Just CARE. What ever you do, try to ensure that you care about it and that you want to be doing it. Frankly... life is short and I don't have time for anger and grudges that are un-warranted. I want to spend as much time on this earth living and loving and raising my bad ass kid to do the same.

I'm about to take a really important trip. I've traveled to this destination a thousand times and this time feels a little more important than others in the past. I'm facing my future and also my past. I just know that I care so much that this time I'm going and the activities I encounter on this trip mean almost nothing compared to the people I will see and may see. As vague as this post is... I know the people that I want to reach will see this and know what I'm saying. I usually TRY to be a little more accessible to a wider audience but this post seemed to feel organic an not very forced. I hope some of my regular readers will forgive me and still check out the next more "general" post. For now.. goodnight and love.

-Darren